year, in review.

I do this every year. I like it. 
1. Was 2008 a good year for you?
I oscillated in and out of self-awareness. 
2. What was your favorite moment(s) of the year?
Kissing Devin for the first time in a room full of people while watching Across the Universe. Graduating college. July 4th. 
3. What was your least favorite moment(s) of [...]

if i could describe what wells in me i would

I have not exercised, meditated, or masturbated in too many days.
I have not had a moment to myself in just as many.
This creates a feeling in me akin to self-awareness drowning. (You know when yr lungs are brimming over, but yr powerless to stop it, dumb statements, scabbed divisiveness)
I am decorated with old defense mechanisms. [...]

it is easy to be beautiful; it is difficult to appear so

How did I get to this point at which I tell Molly that I can’t tell whether I’m insecure or not and that’s the truth.
I know I’ve gained a bevy of body image issues since moving to New York but still generally, I think I’m swell. What I’m not sure about is that you think [...]