Insomnia, likely brought on by the cappuccino.
Need to start meditating again tomorrow. Maybe I should be doing it now rather than unloading on here. I wonder what Susan Sontag thought of blogs, they were just starting to rise when she died…
Had a zine idea. Want to make a zine about Queer (Post)Theory & Gender, with [...]
Entries from February 2009
February 28, 2009
well, i believe them all…
February 27, 2009
Emptying the Container
At Grounded in the West Village with a burnt cappuccino& a bag full of dresses no one wanted to buy. Well, I sold two for store credit at Buffalo Exchange and Beacon’s Closet, so I’ll be able to buy spring/summer clothes come April.
I will write my paper on “Baudelarian Cinema” (ohhh Jonas Mekas) in a [...]
February 25, 2009
Meditations on Restraint II (information // knowledge)
I didn’t run because I forgot a hair tie & I’m coughing up brown gunk & folk wisdom has it that one should not run while her lungs are out of commission.
Anyway, back to my dilemma about knowledge/information; art/culture&critique. In the OED, knowledge is spoken of in terms of an acquaintance; information, in the sense [...]
February 24, 2009
Meditations on Restraint I
Fat Tuesday, I find it hard to resist the vegan chocolate waffles in the Teahaus, especially when Mike eats two. However, I am breaking my self-imposed detox by drinking a half a cup of coffee while we talk about Seamus Heaney because I am tired& they have a “Lisa” mug that matches the “Betty” mug [...]
February 21, 2009
Hedonism // Restraint
At El Beit in Williamsburg. Theoretically, starting my post-hedonism detox with a cup of blue crane tea. I needed a week of sex, drugs, & rock n roll as much as I now need to get rid of this sinus yuck I picked up from Devin& remind my body of the other side of moderation. [...]
February 16, 2009
street philanthropy, mostly
Devin is asleep, or I should probably say that I’m letting him sleep as it is 1:17 in the afternoon. It’s a sunny afternoon& I want to go to the Museum of Sex& maybe the Empire State Building& skip around the streets like we did last night. I would be writing or reading poem-trees if [...]
February 10, 2009
writing process positive
I hate this, I feel like I have nothing to write about, it’s cold in here and my stomach is killing me.
Wow, this is all very negative, negative thinking rots yr bones, y’know. It lives in you. I can change this, this thinking:
If I keep freewriting until I go to the gym, it’s likely that [...]
February 2, 2009
Cooler than you…
Turn the brashness inward to your speaker.
I guess I need to let myself be pwned, but I’m not sure of how to do that and make that a dance. I mean I can write about my insecurities…I just don’t want to apologize for anything. I do need to read more O’Hara this week. Fuck. I [...]
February 1, 2009
attempting to get into the poet headspace!
Okay, need to get all this shit out of my brain, figure out why writing is so hard lately. I know I need more about the women in my Tiffany’s poem but that’s hard because I’m writing the poem because I don’t understand them, otherwise why would I be writing the poem (besides to say: [...]
